my first open mic night

Last week I did my first open mic night at 57 West (Downtown by the fire station).

I loved it. I loved watching people watch me and absorb my words. It was liberating, like peeing in the shower. :)

I can't wait to perfrom again. I met a lovely poet mother named Julie Jade. She's as real as they come.

this is the piece that I performed..it's quite dramatic!

Beating Heart

Beating heart hits floor

It beats no more.

Shatters into pieces, unable to be mended

Promises of happy endings have all been rescinded.

Food, sleep, and sanity are distant illusions

The only guarantee now is unpleasant confusion

Help is nowhere in sight. It’s been denied, not delayed

I believe that death probably feels this way

In this eerie hospital with love as my disease

Hearing funeral music played on organ keys

Chest wide open, doctors around, I see nothing but white

On the operating table desperately holding on to life

Patient could not be revived.

Lovers rarely survive.

Close the lids to my eyes.

It’s over.

Now hear reads my eulogy

I blame this on the fool in me

You fed me that strange fruit that made me feel entitled

To the lusts of my body, while ignoring signs so vital

The innocence was lost like Adam and Eve in the Bible

Our love stopped as suddenly as the death of Michael

All I hear are shrieks, cries, and then deafening silence

Our heartbreak speaks of only lies, turbulence, and violence

The pain, it roars, as loud as thunder

My heart keeps no beat, there is no drummer.

My youthful heart you ate in monster-like gore.

My sheets are stained with hate, blood, lies, and remorse

Tears and hearts sound no different when hitting the floor.

A bad romance, accompanied by a haunting score

Will now sing me to sleep as I close my dying door

For this beating heart, shall beat no more.



Anatomy Music

It's meant to be read kind of fast. It'll make you feel like you're reading a nursery rhyme, but it's really not suitable for kids LOL.

Anatomy Music

I will grab you by your locs
And receive your gift box
Go directly to the spot
And stick my key into the lock!
When I enter you will squeeze
I say “deeper?”, You say “please!”
You get me weaker in my knees
Your kisses stick all over me
We fly high like birds and bees
You make me sing a song of Glee
Glee like playing “Hide and Seek”
Glee like burning, lighting trees
Glee like singing ‘Do Re Me’
Or when you learned your ABC’s
If the robin yearns to sing
The dove will cry a symphony
So come inside and lay with me
Ease your mind, you know it’s me
Hark the raven, woest me
Inspire lovely poetry
Words sincere spoken by me
Tread so soft on poet’s feet
Stifled not by gravity
As they enter quietly
Behind your heart that steady beats
The rhythm of you banging me..



choking

Choking.

I’m choking.

Please release me from this grip

My mind has faded, my senses are gone and my heart’s been ripped

You can’t call this love because it feels like paralysis

You’re stifling me. You hate me and that is my analysis.

I’m cold now my heart’s covered in calluses

Drenched in resentment and sautéed in malice’s

Bitter, salty aftertaste and damn it I’m lost.

I wanted this feeling but never knew the cost.

I’m choking.

Can’t even breathe without your assistance

Love me wildly again, I hate your resistance

You hate my persistence, I hate your resentment

It makes me feel like you hate my existence

I want your commitment. And your hugs, and your kisses.

I crave our collision. Detest this division.

Abhor our decision to make this our ending.

It was never my vision to be without you, listen.

I’m sorry. I’m wrong. I just want your forgiveness.

I’m choking.

I’m not used to being without you. I hate the way it sounds

I’m not used to being without you. I just need you around

I’m choking.

Hug me from behind, to make things alright.

Hug me from behind, to save my life.

Can’t you see I’m choking?

Florence + the Machine

where do I begin?

This chick is utterly fascinating and her voice is so good. It is haunting and uplifting all at the same time. Her words are poignant. She makes trippy music (in the best sense of the word).

Ok. Cut the bullshit, Nathaniel!

This post is really just to put you motherfuckers up on some good shit.

Her album that I keep constantly in my CD player is called Lungs. All the songs are good, but there are some standouts that will capture your soul.

"Cosmic Love"

"You've Got the Love"

"Dog Days Are Over"

"Between Two Lungs"

"Drumming Song"

"Kiss With A Fist"

"Rabbit Heart"

Dedicated to Faith & Free



Once Upon A Time

This is a poem that I wrote from the perspective of a couple of my friends that have experienced a gut-wrenching heartbreak.

I'm a fan of fairytales, but from some experience of my own and that of others it's a fact that not every story that starts out like a fairytale, will end like one. But that doesn't mean to stop reading fairytales!

Honestly, this poem is one of my favorites because it is SOOOOO metaphor heavy. I love toying and tinkering with literary devices.

Damn, that sounded nerdy. lol

Enjoy.

Once Upon A Time

Once upon a time you broke my heart

You left me alone in the cold and the dark

In this empty castle without the simplest warning

To be with another, leaving me waiting and wanting

I miss the days when you were Prince Charming

But your transformation is utterly alarming

I still sit and wonder how could you do this to me?

How could you change so quickly from beauty to beast?

Broke the glass slipper across my head

Disguised as a wolf sleeping in my bed

Monsters are real. I fell in love with the worst

You scream. You punch. You yell. You curse.

You hurt me, baby, yes you were the first

To break it then leave it then retrieve it then eat it

You took this heart from heaven through hell

The pain rings louder than Catholic church bells

If I were a witch I would cast a perfect spell

To rid you of your pride and the lies you tell       

Oh knight, oh knight how your armor does rust

You abandoned the love to pursue your lusts

The potion expired. I now must awaken

You did not rescue. I am completely forsaken

We each blame the other like pot and kettle

We forgot the way home like Hansel and Gretel

Once upon a time and far far away

Love dripped blood and tears on the page

Call the kings horses and call the king’s men

To put my broken heart back together again

Oh lover, oh lover, why didn’t you tell me back then

That happily ever after would feel like THE END

Animal Instinct

Animal Instinct

For some reason I trust you

(Maybe it’s the dimples when you smile)

For some reason I love you

Maybe it’s the call of the wild

Or animal instinct

Or an act of fate

Did you ever stop and think

We were made this way?

Maybe I’m supposed to have this fever

When you look my way

Maybe I’m just a believer

And a fool to stay

Live!

Live!

Plummet to hell

Or be caught in the rapture

Cry until it hurts

Explode with laughter

Spray out upon flesh

And lick it up after...

Rebel!

Challenge the norm

and rage against the machine

Ignite social reform

Or riot and scream!

Inhale the scent of animalistic chemistry

Explore quirky, queer, obscene tendencies

Fall upon flowers, sniff, and daydream

Sing.

Accept anything life may bring

Exhale.

Abort gestation, finally give birth.

Take wings and fly

Become the bird.